Here’s one of Gert’s wardrobes in the bedroom. It looked nice at the store when it was empty and basically only showed a white back panel. But once you put stuff in it, it’s just not as neat looking as I’d like it to be. So, I’ve decided to back both glass panels with white curtains, which will be strapped to two small metal rods. One at the top and one at the bottom. That way it should be tight and stay in place when we open and close the doors. I also went ahead and replaced the dark brass door knobs with white porcelain ones. Here’s the link to the actual furniture in case you’re interested: http://www.ikea.com/be/nl/catalog/products/90213587/
Both curtains cost a grand total of 3.99€ together. Ridiculously cheap! I have no idea how long it will take me, but I really hope it will look good and that I don’t mess up the fabric. Worst case, I lost 4 euros, so hey. Let’s hope for the best though. I can’t wait to show the finished result!
I’m so sorry I’ve been mute for several months. Life became so heavy and full of worries that I’ve been busy dealing with that. But I always had the intention to keep up this blog. Probably for the rest of my life, actually. This has literally become my photo album, my diary, my therapy … my little piece of internet that shows my life and who I am. It will live on for as long as my credit card pays my web host ;-)
Sometimes though, certain things in life are too private to share with the world. Like my uncle’s battle against cancer, his death, his funeral. We’ve been through some rough months filled with sadness and grief. I saw my mom struggling with all the emotions involved with seeing her brother slowly leaving us. We spent many hours visiting him. First at home, and then at the hospital. I couldn’t blog about random happy things in the mean time. This blog is too personal for me to keep up appearances while dealing with the opposite behind my screen. So I let it all rest for a bit and allowed myself a break. All my social media accounts went silent. I must admit: it’s NICE to take a break from the internet every once in a while. I always thought I was an internet junkie, but I’ve come to realize that I’m really not. Some private matters are sacred and don’t get shared online. Especially when there’s someone else’s privacy involved. In this case, a close family member. There’s a certain dignity about not oversharing certain things which I’ve learned to appreciate.
This is also true for what I’ve been trying to handle as best as I can without losing my sanity over it: pregnancy after losing our little boy Sam. I had no idea when I was going to announce it. At first, I wanted to wait until the end of my first trimester. Then it didn’t feel right. So I decided to wait until we found out the gender at 5 months. Then that didn’t feel right either. And then with my uncle being so close to dying, it just didn’t feel right at all. So then I decided to wait until we found a name for this baby … Now, at 28 weeks, despite the fact that we still haven’t decided what to name this child, I feel like the right moment has come to announce that we have a baby on the way. 💕
The state of mind I’m in is impossible to describe in a few paragraphs. But you can catch up with my entire journey in a little bit by looking back at older blog posts. I started blogging privately from the moment I found out I was pregnant, on November 2nd 2015, but I kept everything locked. I will unlock all the pregnancy-related posts in a minute, so they will be publicly visible for everyone to read.
I will be induced at 38 weeks. Partly so we won’t run the risk of losing this baby like we lost Sam. And partly so I won’t go completely mental by the time those last few weeks roll in.
So this is where I stand right now: 10 more weeks to go and scared to death of losing this one too. All while grieving my uncle who passed away on Easter Monday, and processing the fact that no matter what, we’ve been missing Sam through it all and will miss him even more when his little brother arrives. I’m definitely looking forward to happier updates from now on. God knows I need it!
In any case, even though it felt good to take a break from it all during this stressful time, I have to say it’s nice to be back! My Facebook, Twitter and Instagram will be active again as of this week, so do join me there as well! And most of all: thanks to those of you who stuck around during this quiet time and kept visiting my blog, sometimes almost daily. Thank you for the sweet messages of concern I received, the random “How are you doing? Is everything okay?”, and basically for still being there. I appreciate it. 🌹
Continuing with the monthly flashback series I started last month, here’s a look back on our second vacation together which was spent on the Carribean island of Curaçao.
I remember Gert mentioning during my birthday dinner in March 2010 that Curaçao was one of the few places on Earth he’d really want to visit some day. I just looked at him and said “Then let’s go”. He looked at me very confused, as he didn’t seem sure whether I was joking or not. I said “Seriously, let’s go. There’s no point putting this on the list of things you’d maybe do one day, because most people say those things and then they never do it and end up with regrets when they’re older. Or maybe they end up dying prematurely and then never get to do it.” Yeah, I’m morbid and straight to the point like that. He laughed and was like “okay!”. So we booked our tickets a few weeks later.
We ended up absolutely LOVING this trip and we often mention going back. We stayed at the all-inclusive Marriott Beach Resort & Emerald Casino. The whole vibe there was soooo relaxed. Honestly, I’ve never had such a relaxing vacation in my entire life. Although Aruba came close; but I’ll write about that later.
Curaçao is a super cozy little island with a constant sunny weather and a nice 30°C all year round. Do they even have a weather forecast? I remember the hotel channel always showing a little sun and the same temperature every single day. It’s located outside the hurricane belt, so it’s a fairly safe choice at any time of the year.
Most of our week consisted of: lounging around at the hotel’s private beach, the pool, the jacuzzi, our balcony … it sounds super boring, but I promise it’s not lol It was just heavenly! We did rent a car at one point and toured the island by ourselves for a day, and visited a few touristic highlights as well as the capital city of Willemstad (which is more like a pretty laid back town). There’s no denying the island used to be a Dutch colony, as the Dutch influence is VERY visible.
We loved the fact that it’s not overcrowded nor flooded by tourists. Although I can only speak for the month of April, which is when we were there. Maybe the Summer months are more hectic. The hotel itself was also very quiet and we often had one of the pools and jacuzzis just for ourselves. The best part about staying at a Marriott Resort is the food! ❤️ Breakfast buffet was to die for and so was dinner every night.
Anyway, if you ever get a chance to visit Curaçao: please do! I highly recommend it!
As 2016 has just started, I’ve been busy backing up all our pictures from 2015, as I do yearly around this time. It seems we take more and more photos each year. The amount we have accumulated so far is a bit overwhelming. At this point I’m just glad I stayed on top of it all and have everything neatly organized and backed up. After I finished up the last details of my 2015 folder, I started going through our entire photo collection and reminisced about our very first vacation together in 2009. I can’t believe it’s almost been 7 years! Where did the time go?
Ever since I started this blog in 2013, we’ve actually only been on one vacation since; which was in Croatia this past Summer. Our most beautiful trips happened before my blog, and so they have never been posted here. I feel like sharing them one by one in the next few months, because they are really beautiful memories to look back on.
Italy was our very first vacation together as a couple. The ultimate test, basically. Were we going to get along while being with each other 24/7 during one whole week for the very first time? Haha! It was exciting! I had never been to Italy before. We spent an entire week around the Amalfi Coast area and stayed in Sorrento for the most part. We visited Capri, Positano, and the impressive ruins of Pompei, as well as the Vesuvius volcano. We had such a grand time there. The weather was amazing, and as for our relationship test: we passed it successfully! 😄 Not one argument, not one disagreement. Only beautiful memories. 💕 I guess that’s when I knew for sure that we were going to last. And after all, what more romantic place to spend your first vacation together than Italy, right? *sigh* It feels like yesterday yet also like an eternity ago. Does that even make sense?
I apologize for the lack of updates during Christmas and New Year. I had actually promised myself that this would be my laziest holiday ever. Mission accomplished.
I just wanted to stay home, take it easy, relax, watch movies, and basically be the least productive possible. I didn’t cook, or bake, or dress up. I lounged around like a slob and I loved it! The result is a somewhat empty blog and a serious lack of festive pictures, but also one happy and relaxed Lisa. So, no guilty feelings here.
I finally watched my double DVD of Gone With The Wind. Gert had never seen it (shame on him!), so I felt we needed to fix that. Thank God he actually quite liked it. I think the fact that he was expecting it to be much worse kind of helped. 😄
Other than that, there’s really not much to report here. Except that I have a cold, which I’m now waiting to be completely healed so that I can get my flu shot. I hate how no one on Gert’s side of the family takes vaccination seriously. It makes me want to sign them all up for some educational classes on viral diseases and how they can silently spread and put other people’s health in jeopardy, even if you don’t feel any symptoms yourself. I’m not sure if their unwillingness to get vaccinated is simply because they’re clueless about the subject, or if they’re just plain selfish. Either way, it pisses me off. Whenever I try to lay out the facts for them, it feels like my words are hitting a brick wall.
Gert’s aunt is now stuck in Germany until further notice, where she was spending the holidays at her daughter’s place … because she caught the flu. She’s 80 years old. So obviously, it doesn’t heal as quickly and easily as it does when you’re young and fit. She didn’t get vaccinated – of course – and you know that even with this whole ordeal she’s going through right now, she’ll still be stubborn about not getting it done next year.
I just really don’t understand them. But whatever. Let them be sick. I’m getting vaccinated next week! 😠