I tried so hard to give a shit this year, but then I obviously failed miserably. I’m just glad we were invited to my brother-in-law’s place on Christmas eve, so at least I didn’t have to plan or organize anything myself. I had already decided that we wouldn’t be inviting anyone over anyway. So this kind of solved it perfectly. Now Gert wants to invite his parents over on New Year’s eve, and I’m just like “yeah, no.” I’m sorry, it’s nothing against them personally. I do enjoy their company. But I was just really REALLY looking forward to a nice cozy pyjama evening with lots of finger food in front of the TV.
I got to see everybody’s lovely family pictures with their children and babies in front of their Christmas tree plastered all over the internet. Just what I needed! 😒 Ever since Sam passed away, I just can’t deal with happy family portraits anymore. I guess that’s the cross I’m doomed to bear for the rest of my life now. The fact that our family portraits, no matter how many children we have in the future, will never be complete. There will always be a little boy missing by our side. And it doesn’t get easier with time. When I think of how big he would be right now, and how much fun he would have had playing with his new toys … It chokes me up so badly that I have to block those thoughts out of my head and quickly think of something else. Sometimes I manage, sometimes I don’t.
I put quite a lot of effort into Christmas and New Year’s celebrations last year. I guess I felt like I had to force it and fake it, just to get me through the pain of it all. Now that I’m in a less extreme survival mode, I basically just feel like not putting any energy into any of it. I hardly found any motivation to put a decent outfit together on Christmas Eve. My hair looked kinda shitty, my makeup was very basic. And my brother-in-law’s Christmas tree was all black with black Christmas ornaments and everything, which I found ironically appropriate for me that day.
So I basically have zero pictures of our Christmas this year. Maybe I will take some on New Year. After all, I am pretty fucking happy to see 2015 go! What a shitty year it was! Good riddance 2015. You were CRAP. 💩
We initially had one item on our shopping list as we went to the pet store to get dental sticks for Wolf. But then as soon as we entered the store, we saw this dog tie for 2.50€ and just had to have it! Perfect for New Year, right? lol
Then as we were about to check out, we saw this fabulous wicker travel case. I initially said no, but it was the only one in stock and it had one hefty discount (30€ instead of 65€), so we ended up buying it too. There’s no brand or any label whatsoever, so I couldn’t look up more details about it. But with everything it includes, it was definitely worth its discounted price! Wow.
It’s super well made. It’s woven beautifully and features solid leather straps. On the left, there’s a special pouch made to contain food. The right side has one food bowl and one water bowl securely strapped, as well as a large waterproof blanket folded on top of it. There’s enough space on that side to pack some extra toys and sweaters. And the top part has a water bottle that flips open with a handy bowl attached to it, and you gotta love the little finishing touch right next to it: a roll of poop bags lol
This will definitely be used next time we go on a weekend trip somewhere :-) I’m actually thinking of attaching a cute luggage tag to it so there will be his name and address on his very own little case. Haha!
Look how gorgeous the sky was last night above our house:
Only a few more days to go and our new interior will be finished! Meanwhile, we enjoyed our first TV evening in our new living room yesterday. We’re still missing curtains and a couple of mirrors on the walls, but we’re getting there.
Jules the cat inspected everything and seemed quite disappointed about not being able to dig his nails into the old wall paper lol The bare walls aren’t doing it for him; which is a good thing! To be honest, the wallpaper was kind of turning into a nightmare with him. So wallpaper shall be banned from the entire house for the rest of eternity.
He also had a blast admiring himself in the mirror that I sanded and prepped to be painted.